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OPL/AMAZON anywhere that books are in existence [09 Dec 2008|08:45pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Am I not looking hard enough or is it that contemporary novels with LGBT characters having happy, productive lives and loves do not exist? I checked, hard, for a light-hearted novel about lesbians and love and life, yet I have only been greeted with trashy novels doused in sex and thereby no LOVE or ROMANCE, non-fiction about the "plight" of being a person of LBGT identity, or more trashy novels of gay love affair and failure. I DON'T WANT THAT!!!

I simply want a novel, FICTION, about someone finding love and other things that people find, that happens to be queer. Why is that so difficult? Why can't I simply find a novel about something that I identify with?

I'm on the verge of attempting, what will certainly become a trite and incredibly terrible novel, but it will be authentic to what I'm feeling. I reiterate that it will be awful, but at least it would be representative, (at least for me).

Seriously, if Meg Cabot and another of writers can find the time to create senseless novels about women finding "heterosexual" love, why can't someone dredge up the talent to change that guy into a girl?!

I'm just putting it out there and venting.

I don't want trash, I don't want depressing; I want normal. Make it happen. Jeez!

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VOTE!!!! ok not for anything important but.. for me [13 Jul 2008|12:50am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I got into Mills


I'm scared.

should I go for on-campus single parent housing (alone)

stay in a sexless coupledom with baby daddy to appease the baby (makes baby happy and no work for me)


live alone. alone alone


I don't know.

excitement and fear is settling in and I haven't decided on the living arrangements or decisions. I have a merit scholarship. VOTE! on what you would do!
por favor. it does couunt. un-miscalculatedly.

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I am very disturbed [12 May 2007|02:37am]
why are people so dominant? Tonight someone got into a horrible fight and a weapon was brandished. Also tonight (thanks to my horribly unluckycincodemayo vomit dress) a guy harrassed me on the phone, I got to regret MORE of my choices (mistakes), and a guy came on my dress while dancing (the second time). WHY?! Because people can't control their(em)selves.
i don't want to dance at straight clubs if my close always get ruined. BACK TO THE WHITEHO!

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[ mood | infuriated ]

They are incahoots with Cheney, Bush, and Satan.

they get together to steal money with phony contracts and kill tiny babies.

Now I get to be even MORE poor.

Gotta go write a paper about sex tourism in Cambodia.

This world (rather the people in it )can suck my balls.

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Went to the therapist for the first time in 8 years ... [02 Feb 2007|02:15am]
[ mood | horny ]

There really should be a rule against hot therapists wearing nearly see-through tops.

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he said [26 Dec 2006|12:25am]
Happy Christmas!

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America's Next Hippo! [14 Jan 2004|02:43am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

My throat hurts. And it don't feel no good. :p I WOULD gargle with salt but that makes my mouth feel dirty so I'll just pretend it doesn't hurt so it'll feel bad about it's self and leave.

I just wanna say that I absolutely adore your away message, simple as it is.... I'm a dork.

Ok I REALLY need to go to bed at a normal time.

We watched 'Bring it on' and I applied for a job at Safeway. It took an hour to do their in-store application thing. It was stupid and 'bout time I was finished I no longer wanted to work there. I hope they call. I need money now. Need to save up for a lot of things. One of those 'things' being hotness. Hotness and another guitar.

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We Are Mortal. [13 Nov 2003|11:04pm]
[ mood | shocked ]


I did not know her well, but I always noticed something about her.

It's hard to remember that at times. And at other times I know it all too well, and I worry non-stop. And I fear everything. You just never know. And now I fear that I'm not fullfilling my potential as a human being. I don't want to look at that flashback of life and see nothing worth anything; nothing special. Will people be sad when I die? Will they remember anything?

People will remember her. R.I.P. Jessi.

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I'M A GOOD WORKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [20 Oct 2003|11:36pm]
[ mood | determined ]

If anyone knows of a place hiring in the Bay Area, Please tell me. I need to pay for school.PLEASE!!! I BEG!!!! AHHHH!!!!!

Thank you

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The Creative Juices Are Flowing.... [25 Sep 2003|08:14pm]
[ mood | creative ]

I've been making lots and lots of happiness icons.

*"Friends" is sucking like a monkey*

Anyways... being sucked in.. finish this later.

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Just for the record... [20 Sep 2003|03:28am]
[ mood | awake ]

I just wanna say that GOD is awesome and though I complain a lot... He still protects me. YAY! And though I will undoubtedly begin complaining again in ten minutes or so.... and cursing and probably saying something dirty... still.. that's all.

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Again with the oversleeping! [16 Sep 2003|04:08pm]
Yep, over slept... no job hunting fun... :sigh:

I didn't OVER over sleep... it's just that I had to wash my hair so I needed a couple of extra hours...

Oh well. Buffy and Off to see the wizard. Job fun on friday I guess.

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I Try Not To Be Mean... [15 Sep 2003|07:42pm]
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It's So Weird... [13 Sep 2003|02:59am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

David and I were JUST talking about Johnny Cash. Around the time that he died too. I heard my first round of Johnny Cash songs today. I didn't know "Ring of Fire" was his. I actually liked that song. And John Ritter was HILARIOUS! They will be sorely missed.

Johnny Cash
John Ritter

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[10 Sep 2003|08:38pm]
She has SOME NERVE to ask me , ME, for an apology!!! Have I made HER life absolutely miserable?? Have I tried to make HER think she's crazy??!! HELL NO! All I've tried to do was be a good daughter. She's lost her f@#$in' mind if she thinks I'm going to apologize for doing nothing wrong. FUCK NO!

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Low Self Esteem?? ME??!! No! [08 Sep 2003|12:52am]
So as I'm listening to the new John Mayer album... thinking how much better "Room For Squares" is (it's got some good songs on there but it seems like he wasn't quite sure where he was going with the sound)... and my porn-star friend sends me a pic of himself. Anyways.. so then i sent him a pic of mine and I suddenly went all low self esteemy on him! I can't help that I'm a big fat cow. I don't try to be one. I HATE the way I look. this sucks and i hurt so I can't think correctly. PAIN!! MAKES ME DIZZY!!

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Suuuurrrre.... [04 Sep 2003|03:51pm]
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JOHN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [01 Sep 2003|05:15pm]
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What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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[01 Sep 2003|04:43pm]
[ mood | creative ]

Maki - "Truly Rare"
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What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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